huh?

messy hair!

guess what i am looking at?

I just came back from swimming! hehe I went swimming with Zhen Hui today.. Had a good chat with her which makes me understand her a little more better.. So happy to have a friend who finally stays near me!

We went shopping! I saw a bikini, same as my red one but its green and its only $16. On offer le.. i bought $56 last time le.. wanna cry le.. since i liked it i just buy lo hehe.. its nice on me also ma..

This morning Shawn contacted me ask me if i know any property agent. Den i thought of Eunice. Not wanting to disturb Kenny, I smsed Uncle Vincent to check with him if Eunice is still dealing with property. Of coz la! Help those i know ma.. if she managed to get a good deal for my fren too its good also.. benefit both parties... Anyway Eunice is a very nice person also hehe..

Uncle Vincent smsed me something that was rather surprising but of coz it made me smile.. He asked me to visit him when i am free.. I guess maybe i would one day depends on certain factors.

That made me happy as in the past, when i was with Kenny, his parents treated me well and of coz i love his family very much too.. spending a lot of time with them, joining them in all gatherings. Even when Kenny is not free to be there with them, they will bring me out as if i am part of the family already.

Well haha *shrugx*

Do you know how it feels like when at times u need someone there for u but yet u can't seem to find anyone?

Or that you try your best to lend a helping hand to others but yet only to feel that u have been taken for granted and that its as if u owe them a favour. Not only did u not get thanked for the effort but yet... sighx nvm..

Nowdays i see a few changes to some people and it actually surprised me as it's so completely not what i expected. Guess that's part of life..

I wish i could be selfish not to care about how others feel so maybe I would not be so upset. I wish i could be like last time.. Only care about myself and as long as i am happy, its enough.

But i no longer bear to do that anymore... Caused Kenny used to tell me i have to spare a thought for others first and not only care just for myself. I guess i never used to heed his advice till my world turned upside down.

And because of this, I will try my best to do what I was told to.. If that's what you wan, I will try.. even tho it hurts me a lot..

I just wish to be happy.. really happy.. and i am waiting for the day the time comes when I will get what i really wished and prayed for everyday. You know what it is..

Today is sunday.. and i shall declare it PATHETIC SUNDAY

what a terrible day it is for me.

So pathetic and miserable.

I have to respect decisions but no one consider about how i feel or what i wan. When i resent, its like its my fault tt i nv spare a tot for them.. I'm not transparent.. I got my feelings too.

Its so about you you you you you..

My friends and others who i care about are so like tt nowadays. Taking me for granted and all.

But its ok.. as long as they are happy. I cannot say anything also ma.. I dun wanna appear to look pathetic. I can't cry too. I have to be strong.

I dunno why but nowadays nothing can make me cry except for one thing in particular.. but i wun wanna show it also.. must REN!

3 da hao jie mei! i love u 2