haikx.. its me

i kinda sit down and think for very long le..

i work so long liao
but where did all my money go

insurance
driving
shopping
schooling..
pay mummy cpf
make up..

i v sad i need to cut down on a lot of things liao if not i will go broke

sighx i wish my other half will save for me man.. not tt i wun save la but den i wish he will think for our future and save as well..

i dunno if got not la but then if got den good right!!! i don't need to worry about money.. i hate to worry about money le!!!

maybe i need to take up a sideline job
maybe i really need to scrimp and save and eat cheap stuff everyday

i am damn sad..

also i think i got problem man.. i hate being alone.. once i start being alone, i will anyhow think of this and that.. its bad le.. i know but i dunno how to stop it

during the past few months i suffer from depression la this that.. will just suddenly sit down and cry.. maybe its exams.. ooh well maybe its just me.. sighx..

tml start work again!! need to think of what to wear tomorrow le..

hi people!!
i am back!!!

everything abt me changes!!
ok la not everything but a lot of things!!

first!!!
i am not working in CPF anymore!!!

second!!!
I am a bit crazy and now cause after exams.. my mind is full of "play play play" so jio me out le!!!

third!!!
My new work place is in GE Money..
not great eastern hor but just GE money
its in raffles place
quite fun le the place.. but i have to get use to making new friends!!

fourth!!!
I think i fatter liao cause during exams i eat eat eat just to satisfy my craving

fifth!!!
fuck Corporate Finance u #$%#$%#$ nb why the paper so hard!!!!

sixth!!!
i love myself :P wahahahaha

i miss all my friends le!! where u all go!!!
i wan shopping
i wan ktv!!
i wan more money!!
i wan make up

sobx sobx

lastly!!!
my bday coming and i dunno what to do!!! my friends don't forget to meet up!!!!!!

if u guys know how my make up collection is now i think u all will vomit blood so i shall not reveal before someone stops me!!
anyway everytime i see my make up collection i just feel v happy
its my destress kit and of course make me feel prettier..
not tt i am pretty la but i just happy can!! ahh i am mad.. i tahan 2 months of madness studying so pardon me!!

Some recent pics for u all to vomit at

Hi people!!

To those who miss me..

I will be back

12 June is my last paper

At this moment i am struggling with my exams!!

Its so tough i wanna cry!!

Give me sometime ok!! i promise i'll be back with more stuff about myself!! till then!! be patient!!

Hi all, its been long since i blogged abt myself. Well been busy recently
with i dunno what also.. yeayea i know some of you have been complaining
that I have not been updating.

Guess what!!! I'm going to taipei, taiwan!!! on VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!!!! Damn excited and happy!!!!! will buy a lot of things back hahahaha and not to forget to collect many ang pows to go there to spend!!!

To all guys out there!!! Please make your gf happy!! buy her stuff!! buy her gifts flowers blah blah blah, she deserves it!!! when u are sad, whose there for u?? when u need someone, whose standing by ya side!! its her!!! to all girls out there!! don't forget at ya bf too!!! they love u v much too i'm sure!! so envious.. haha

Been a hectic year i guess.. beginning of the year practically sux for me..
100%! I have to face a lot of problems and hurt and did it make me
stronger?? I guess not.. many people always tell me that i will learn from
mistakes but i feel that it has weaken me a lot.. No longer am i the
confident and outgoing person. In fact i have become dao la or can't be
bothered and don't really like to interact with people.

Let me see.. What have i done for 2005?? hmm.. Simple!

1) Been to HongKong
2) Lose weight hehehe i did ok but den again maybe i am putting it back on
again haha
3) I guess that's all as nth major happened..

I need to start saving.. I have my aims that I wanna fulfill.. Ooh well let
me see what are my resolutions for the year 2006

1) save $10000 by Dec 2006. This is the minimum i need to have saved by Dec
2006. It may seem v little.. well to me at least but as i have other
commitments also it is a lot liao and whether i can reach that amt or not,
haikx.. i also dunno but hey its just an aim! duh.. not as if i am getting
high salary pay also..

2) Lose more weight.. haha yes i am never satisfied..

3) To make more friends.. hmm.. yea maybe but girls please.. i wanna
have more shopping khakis..

4) Buy lesser make up. haha yes i cannot seem to stop myself to buy more
make up.. Its like i just want to collect it all!! all so pretty!! Argh
this has got to stop. I cannot take it anymore if not i can't save already.

5) Buy a car. yup and not just any car. its THE car that i want to buy.
Only someone will know what i am refering to.

6) To love myself more.. I used to be so self centered and only care abt
myself. but now.. i care so much abt others i dun even care or think for
myself.. dang i really dunno how to balance myself man.. argh i think if i
care for myself i am happier i guess.. i really need to know how to balance
things out.. sighx..

7) Study hard for exams.

Ooh well if there are more den ok loh dun have den let's stick to this now
bah..

I also received a v funny comment that i had plastic surgery.. tmd wat a joke.. so exp i wish i got that sorta money.. but den again i feel like a celebrity man!! wooo hooo hahahhaha funny funny funny... Doesn't mean i got nice eyes means its fake ok!!! i got nice eyes all the while.. kns

There are many things that put me down in 2005 and to all the bad things in
life.. to the idiots, morons, bitches, bastards, sluts and assholes who
make my life miserable, FUCK OFF AND DIE please. *pardon me* Those
boyfriend snatchers, flirts and liars can all rot in hell! I simply cannot stand it man.. I'm not naming names in fact i'm not sure if i can name any but hey u know there's bound to be someone somewhere out there whose like that.. tsk tsk *rolls eyes*

I guess in my life i'll always hate tt one person and what goes ard comes
ard. Although i may not know if you are having ur retribution, i believe in
karma ok.. and i dun need anything bad but hope u get hit back whateva u
have done to me.

I just want to enjoy my life and be happy and lead a simple
life.

Also happy birthday to my sister!! jiejie loves ya!!!

And one last thing to those !@#!@# people, _|_

Here comes my Christmas wishlist 2005!!!!

okok i shall be quick!

1) MAC mini lipgloss set in warm
This one i like a lot!!


2) MAC mini pigments set.
A nice set of pigments for me!!


3) Stila lipglaze in Orange.
My FAVOURITE lipgloss. can't live without it.



4) Stila mini lippolish set


5) Ipod Nano
OoOOooo whose going to buy me this huh hehe


6) Samsung LCD monitor 19 inch
i wan more space for my table so i can study on it :X

7) MAC's disney tinted lip conditioner
Its so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!! i want 1 but its only out after 15 dec.

8) Isetan/Tangs vouchers
well i can always get my make up from there haha

9) Authetic Addidas jacket
i dun have and i want~~

10) Anything from MAC
hahahahaha...

11) Burberry new charm watch
v pretty wor..

12) To be loved and cared for by my special someone
*winkwink*

Ahhh!!! This is my list of things i really need and want
*prays i get most of it*

Loving is about giving unconditionally; it's not about taking things for granted.
You can just sit down and smile thinking about the things your love ones has done for you..

i read a thread on fp today on marriage proposals.. how their significant other (SO) propose to them.. it was so sweet.. tears flow down my eyes..
let me show u some..

As posted by chocolatemousse:
"He told me on a tuesday that he's meeting me after lunch to go for a movie and asked me to wait for him at PS. I reached there on time and he's nowhere to be seen! I was getting pretty impatient and ring him up. He told me that he's there already and asked me to give him a few mins more. Being a good ggf, I agreed. A few seconds later I saw him coming up from the escalator with this enormous bouquet of red roses. He has this big smile on his face, and we proceed to watch movie.

After movie he told me that he's bringing me to somewhere special and we took a cab down to cityhall. I am begining to wonder what is going on as we stopped at one of the entrance at raffles city. He told to get prepared and soon i found out that we are dining at Equinox. I was staring out of the window from 70 floors at the Singapore's Night Scenery when he pop the question. I am so shocked! The peeps at the next table are all staring at us, being embarrassed I agreed. And soon th waiters begin to cheer and clap. He really surprised me on that day, cause I didn't know that he's going to ask me so soon and he's normally the no-so romantic type. But still, he's romantic on that day. "

so sweet right..

in cc autumnheart posted
"this monday, when he sent me to work, i asked if he's free this week and if i could ask him out for dinner and he said ok. on tuesday, he told me to "wear nice nice" for the dinner and i guess it's THE time.

he refused to tell me where we were going for dinner. when he came to fetch me at 7pm, he was wearing shirt and tie and even brought along his jacket suit.

we went to blu restaurant at shangri-la hotel. the restaurant was having some food festival thing, so there's only 1 set meal with a choice of main course (beef or lamb). the dishes have very sophisticated names for a simple person like me.
every dish (including dessert) has a wine to go with and i was like, already dizzy when i'm halfway through the soup.

after meal, he suggested that we visit the balcony and i saw him clenching his fist when we walk towards the door. we walked to the end of the balcony and enjoyed the breeze for a little while before deciding to head back to the restaurant to get some coffee.

when we did a U-turn, he suddenly grab me tightly and then kneel down on one knee and asked if i could let him take care of me for the rest of our lives, and if i would marry him. trying to act hard to get, i asked "where are the flowers?"
he said "don't have, want (me) or not?"

there were some people sitting at the other end of the balcony and they were already cheering at him. so i said "ok" and heard someone said "good girl!"
then we kissed. then the captain/manager brought me a bunch of roses.
when we left the balcony, everyone there clapped."

I'm not saying this coz i wan someone to propose to me.. i'm just saying this is sweet to know that there are many lucky girls out there whose bf really go all out to prove how much they love them.. and yes their efforts do show..

just like doris.. u see how fortunate she is.. doris is my colleague btw... Stuart really loves her a lot.. even i can tell.. i can see it in his eyes, how it brightens up everytime he talked abt her.. how proud he is to let everyone know how much he love her.. i'm so happy for her..

Here's a tip for all the guys out there.. All gers would want to be loved and cared for.. we all love to be pampered and yes that includes attention too.. If you think tts demanding, ask yourself if you love someone, would u wan them to love and care for you? ask all the girls if u dun believe.. unless they don't like ya, of coz they wun need or want your attention.. Don't only say it with words.. that surprise phonecall, a surprise visit would definitely make her day.. If we really love you for who you are, we don't need any flowers or gifts, a hug or a kiss would be more den enough to make us feel loved. If a girl really loves you, she doesn't need you to spend money on her... in fact she would be glad to spend her money on you.. Think about it, if one day you are left with nothing, would she still be there for you? I know i will if my love one is sick or is facing problems.. If so, please don't hesitate. give her a call now and tell her how much u love her =)

i know that day will come when the one who really loves me would let me know how much he love me.. its not only by the words he say but by the actions too.. not afraid to tell the world how much he loves me.. is this considered as demanding and asking for a lot? I dunno but i guess its logical that you wish the one you love is proud to love you..