Yours Truly, Emma.. the unpredictable girl in her unpredictable little world..

I am having mixed and complicated feelings now. I am angry + upset + pissed.



I dun even feel like meeting him today.. just wanna be alone seriously.. or maybe just dun wanna see him. The thought of him lying to me makes me fucking sick.

Anything he tells me are like lies.. Big fat fucking lies.. Tell me about it.. As if i do not have enough boyfriends in the past to cause me such agony. Fuck it..

Now i know what it is like to be stupid enough to trust anymore.



Example : Tried calling him once i reached home.. before he says i dun care abt him anymore. I called.. He cancelled my call. FINE! maybe press wrong.. so i called again..

Cancel again. In my head, I was thinking, " NB go out with one friend must hang up my call one meh? Which cb friend so impt that he can't even pick up my fucking call"

Everytime when i go out with him, having dinner, shopping, or whateva, he will be busy smsing someone. who? no fucking idea. All he can say is "friend".. Yea all his damn

friends no name one lo. Fine lo.. his friend his taiji.. next time i sms someone he better not ask me too. I got too many friends to mention names to him.



Nb when he ask me I have to tell him. When i ask him its just his FRIEND. blah whateva.



So he sms me say he watching movie with his friend. I was thinking, "NB watch movie nv bring me.. everytime i wanna watch movie i confirm will wait for him one lo. Next time i dun care already..

What he wanna do is his problem... blah blah blah I dun care.. I got other things to care abt.



Den he said he is with his friend Kelvin.."right who knows its some Lucy, Nancy or Amy." So i sms him back to say.. "Yea if it is a girl, ask her to go to the toilet to fuck herself"



Pissed ar.. but den again.. WHATEVA!!



I better get other things to do to make me busy... Woohoo name me some activities.. I really have no idea..



Not to forget. This guy in IRC nick B0ing. Pissing me off by trying to get my attention and telling me how much he "love me" and like me.. right...

Not interested.. seriously.. friends still ok.. i dunno u..



Ever since I've been transfered to CPF Main Office, I've known a few guys.. I can't help but feel that a certain guy there.. nah ah.. shall not name names.. not gonna mention which dept too, is trying to get my attention.

Please dun tell me its my wishful thinking. I know how to differenciate when it comes to such things ok.. His always like treating me so nice and all.. Way nicer than the other guys.. fine fine whateva.. my wishful thinking. I hope so too.. Don't want it to be real too.. haha