i'm trying to get my new skin up! be patient!!!

i'm trying to get my new skin up! be patient!!!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

So blardy true.. esp on the "In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved."

Haha i just need to rant rant and rant!

I accidentally slit my wrist today!! heng its not a deep cut if not i think i'm like so dead... what happened was that a piece of sharp edged paper cut my wrist.. so pain.. sobx.. why nv cut deeper den i die better sobx haha

Lotsa things happened these days.. I feel happy, sad, down, up, all sorts of mixed feelings..

Happy - I guess i can't elaborate much abt this but at least its something tt keeps me going... but haikx.. i dunno la...

Sad - I guess its cause i think too much.. way too much for everything.. tts so me right.. it sux!

Mixed feelings - Basically this involves friendship as well as other factors.. makes me so luan in my life again.. makes me scared as well.. ooh well to things tt makes me upset, leave me alone~ Don't bother me! lolx

Friends are worth knowing as well as keep. but please do not make use of me or make me realised tt all along u are making use of me for a certain reason.

Nowadays I am thinking what kinda guys do i really hate.. i guess its those who are real shallow and yet they think they are not... ooh please!

Not everyone is born pretty, slim, smart, sexy whateva! No one's perfect..

I'm not pointing fingers at anyone but just making a general remark on things tt i see around me..

*sighx* how i wish there's someone out there who will love me the way i am... provided i must love tt guy too la! but why why why i just always dun dare to admit to a guy i like! Why do i always sit there and wait for tt certain someone to initiate first? Maybe coz i'm scared.. not only scared to be rejected but also scared to lose a friend.. I know myself.. i am not those who break off a friendship after finding out a particular guy likes me.. I got real life examples de ok!

Better start praying to god and wish he will grant my wishes!!!

Ooh ya btw i went to Jasmine's wedding on thursday! 05/05/05! Cool date right? haha well 05/05/05 is also officially declared by me for a certain someone.. Anyway! Jasmine is my god-ma! and i love her so much! She really cares and take care of me.. listen to my problems.. At times when i am upset, she will give me a hug and i feel better.. I am v happy she is married now.. mind u she is not old ok.. just tt i happen to be my colleagues' baby.. so haha i got a few mummies ard.. The food was fantastic.. Seeing how happy she is makes me think how happy i was in the past when i have someone special to share my life with..

Its not easy to find someone who can make u feel complete.. why hesitate den? Lots of people ard me tells me they found someone who makes them real happy and complete but i dunno what's holding them back.. girls.. dun be too picky ok.. but den again it also depends if the other party feels the same too.. sighx! Why do things have to be so complicated?? Well all i have to say is yes it maybe depending on fate and all but! you have to persue ur own happiness too! If you let someone slip outta ya hands, no matter got what fate, you'll nv get what u deserve coz u nv treasure.. girls girls.. u can tell me tt u can so totally be urself ard tt someone... don't later u end up with someone who u have to endure with the rest of ya lives or tt u end up with someone who u can nv be urself when u are ard them.. and yes! take ur time! but if the person gets attached le dun come kp to me say why u nv take action earlier ar! anyway i love u all!

By the way, I am giving myself 6 weeks to jian fei! why six? Dunno.. just give la! I dun wanna be chubby anymore! I must do it!! its for my own good!!!! Den i can kick all da stupid guys out there who judged me on how i look instead my personality! *puix*

I want my happiness!! Gimme!!! *!@#!@#*

this is a pic i do for a certain someone.. you know who.. ahaha

a recent picture taken by someone~

cute not??

lovely isn't it.. its so romantic!

lovely cake! too bad i din eat!! ooh well its good i din!! diet!! and its too pretty to eat too

signing of the wedding cert

I took a pic of their wedding cert lolx

Jasmine.. my godma~~

Jasmine and Jimmy~~

Typing this blog during my free time in office now..
I have been smiling for the whole day..

I guess some of my colleagues may think tt i am hua chi already...
haha just v happy don't bother asking me why!! haha i wun say de...

well..^_^I put some photos of me as well as my best friends on my table.. you cansee the photo below.There will be some other pictures too.. should i put or should i not? haha still deciding~~~ see how bah!

It sux to be left hanging there right... e.g. wanting to know what others are thinking...At times i hate that feeling.. nono make it i hate tt feeling all thetime!! haha ok i know it seems fun when u do that to others at times but AHHhhhHHhhHHh!!!!

I realised that nowadays I am more forgiving.. Maybe its becoz i can't be bothered or tt i just dun wish to get myself into any unwanted problems..My friends asked me.. Why do I still wanna care and befriend people who delibrately try to hurt me? Why do i still help and show so much concern to them? I dunno why i still do that.. maybe its becoz i believe tt i have to standby my friends all the time to support them.

Well I dunno why.. maybe in the past i would have already hated such so call friends.. but all i think and feel now is why is tt person doing that? I actually pity them.. sighx.. i changed.. and i dunno maybe life would be better this way... hehe maybe i'm too nice.. *pukex*

I have updated my blog's layout details.. All thanks to a kind soul who reminded me.. hmm... but den again maybe it doesn't matter to anyone hor...hahahahaha i am so mean~~~

this is me!!

our pic!

You guys know what...

Today is the happiest day after so long..
ever since kenny broke off with me i guess...

I went out on a date with him! yes him! those who know who he is, please keep it to urself! Anyway, not much people know who also la..

Well It was nth much but i sure enjoyed myself very much! His cute cute cute! So darn cute! oops did i say too much? Ooh he maybe seeing this ar.. den tonight can't fall asleep huh.. lolx and no i wun be holding my phone up high and sleep while staring at it..

We went shopping! I bought 2 bags... haha crazy me!! we ate so much too.. i think i'm gonna burst!

Its hard to find someone who shares the same interest, thinking and crap as u..

Thanks for being such a sweet and caring friend dude.. if u happen to see this!! *hugx*