Yours Truly, Emma.. the unpredictable girl in her unpredictable little world..

Hi people, its been long since i last updated my blog,
got to say a lot of things happened in these few weeks

I'm not dead dun worry.. but i guess i'll soon be

I really hate myself for being so impatient all the time
and it hurts even more when i'm not the only impatient one around and yet
no one understands why am i behaving this way.
I have got to change for the better
Patience is what i really need.

This may have caused me something v impt in my life.. sob sobx.. so
disappointed in myself why can't i ever keep my blardy mouth shut. Why must
i be so honest? Why can't i just lie.. Why this why that? Why got so many
whys..

Many wondered why am i still not attached after like so long.. surprised
right? so not me right? I have been accused of having too high
expectations. So not true.. Maybe its caused in my heart i left tt place
for a special someone.. *sighx* and yes tts the reason ok!

Sometimes i wonder why can't i be a materialistic bitch? why can't i just
love a guy based on his looks and money? Yes i got expectations and tt is
if i love tt guy den i will be with him.. Why would i wanna be with a guy
just caused he got money? I feel like if he has money, its a plus pt but
its not compulsory. Talking abt looks wise, if i love him, i dun care how
he look i'll still love him..

Its funny how girls love guys when they are yandao la or have 5Cs but den
they can't get all these and yet they have someone stupidly waiting and
loving them so much.. and yet i wan tt stupid someone to love me so much
and no the 5Cs tt they wan. How sucky can that be.. many may think tt its
like wah this type of ger where to find.. but haikx i dun wan the rest to
think tt way coz it doesn't matter.. All i wan is him.

When i love a guy, i'll stick by him through thick and thin regardless of
how he treats me or how he comes.

I love the way he smells, the way he look at me, the way he hug me, the way
he kiss me, just love everything abt him.

Dear god, please grant me my only wish now.. I really want it to come
through. You know how i feel and u know i'm serious..

Sometimes my friends asked me if i want him because i can't get him.. I'm
not those fan jian kind lo.. I know how i feel inside and tts not what it
is..

But I'm happy to see certain improvements of things on the way.. i'm happy
at least its something.. hope i nv spoil anything.. i dun mean it.. i'm
harmless..

also my mood is affected greatly.. not only that it has affected my work
too.. Today i received a call from a knnbccb pardon for my language but his
really a mother fucker lo. Worse still he belongs to a race tt people will
automatically stereotype them to behave this way. Tell me abt it.. some of
time kpkb say why we always think tt particular race behaves like this and
they are the fuckers who wanna behave this way. Ooh yea i know i'm going to
receive a complain from him but hey i din do no shit so i ain't going to be
scared.. Yea from what i checked his a PR * rolls eyes* Ooh please I hope
he tio from the govt and den kenna kick out of SG. PLEASE COMPLAIN MORE!!
COMPLAIN TO PMO i also not scared coz i hope Mr Lee will open his eyes big
big not to let such uncivilise people kick us Singaporeans ard.

Once again his a fucking ccb. *i'm venting my anger*

See how it has affected my mood? Sighx.. so sad.. sobx

Who pity me? No one..