Yours Truly, Emma.. the unpredictable girl in her unpredictable little world..

My Birthday Wishlist Post!

Hi all, despite feeling all upset and wanna cry now.. please dun ask me why.. i still have to post something as some of my dear friends asked me wat do i want for my bday.. anyway listing it or not does not make a big difference to me anyway.. its just going to be another sad birthday.. everyone's busy with their own things.. its ok i understand.. i do not have someone special for me or mean much to someone.. I really thought i could have a happy birthday celebration this yr.. initially wanted to organise a party but mummy dun wanna help me with it.. ooh well put tt aside as i guess i spoilt everything and have to face reality... i have to walk this journey alone..

lots of things have been happening to me these days which i just keep to myself coz saying it is not going to make a difference anyway.. people tell me saying it will just make me feel better.. trust me.. it wun.. the burden on my shoulders are more den i can take.. and yet these problems can't be solved by saying or other's helping.. people might not understand why do i behave the way i am sometimes but its ok.. i dun expect them to anyway.. they have their own problems too so why would they wanna bother abt mine..

i'm going to part with more friends soon.. my fabulous lunch khakis from work.. Esther, TanHui, Charlene, Momo, Doris and of coz Winnie.. my wonderful "sotong vs. anti sotong" friends.. when i go back to HQ (Robinsons Rd) on 1st July.. i maybe or should be eating lunch alone liao.. I hate to leave u guys but due to school i am left with no choice as travelling from Tampines to SIM is really a torture.. Think abt it.. it is really horrible tt every time i end lesson which is around 10+ and when i reach my bus stop at braddell road tt time it will be ard 11 already, i have to take bus alone and walk tt horrible walkway alone. some of u may think.. why walk right? Coz even if i take bus, i would either need to wait for the bus near the cemetery there or wait in front of the industry buildings there.. both are just as bad.. dun worry.. i am not tt suay for anything to happen *choychoy* i can take care of myself.. if i can't den too bad.. if its meant to be it will be.. I have a few brushes with death before but its nothing to talk abt..

I went to the zoo today.. had a blast seeing things tt amazes me and scares me at the same time and also happy with the company i had.. Thanks for accompanying me the whole day.. i really appreciate it a lot.. Had Ben n Jerry's Icecream.. it rox.. half way on the trip, my heart was suddenly beating v fast.. i dunno why but i was practically panting but i just kept quiet.. dunno why i did tt too.. guess it doesn't matter.. anyway there is a wishing well there too.. i dropped a coin in it and make a wish.. dun ask me what it is as even tho it may not come thru, at least i know i am v sincere.. and i am pantan too ok.. cannot say de!

Nowadays my health is failing me even tho i have been exercising regularly.. Have repeated cases of nose bleeding out of the sudden or experiencing body numbness esp on my hands arms and legs.. I have been taking care of myself and not forgetting to see doctor. Even the doctor dunno wats wrong with me.. but as for the nose bleed he say i got nose infection whereby my left side of the nose inside swell and pressure on my nose will cause it to bleed. dun worry my nose still looks fine.. This sux as i experience many times giddyness and also nearly blackout a few times..

Anyway here is some of the things on my wish list.. not tt i am bhb or anything but i know some of my dear friends out there are cracking their head on wat to get..
1) Ralph Lauren's Ralph perfume (the one is light blue/turquoise bottle)
2) Guess watch in either pink or gold (as seen below)
3) M.A.C eyepaint in Untitled or Bare Canvas.
4) Shu Uemura eye manicure in Honey Glazed
5) Shopping Vouchers from Isetan, Tangs or Robinsons (dun worry i wun think u are bo sim coz i can use this to buy my make up ahahaha)
6) a MMC memory card 256mb for my Nokia 7610 (talk abt it i wanna cry liao)
7) a digicam (been wanting one for a long time but ex le..
8) a palm top tt i can use for organising my schedule as sch is starting soon... second hand i also dun mind..
9) a straw bag tt looks like the wicker basket from GAP.
10) a mini skirt from "Why everyone is beautiful" store at taka or great world which only 2 person in this world knows which one i am refering to.. i already have the white one.. i dun mind having the green one too..
11) a make over package

ok here are some silly things
12) A boyfriend (jk hahahah *starts crying again*
13) An Evo 8 or 9 car. (unless u got a lot of money to spare if not dun bother.. dun give excuses tt i haven gotten a licence yet as i can always get a car first.. or i can give someone tt car.. *u know who u r*
14) to go on holiday with the one i love
15) to die ( haha ok if u kill me i promise tt i wun go and haunt u.. if cannot kill me nm just knock me out so tt i will lose my memory)
16) for Granny to get well and recover so tt she will be stronger and healthier.
17) To get married and have my own family and baby ( I know this is hard.. i nv say i want it now.. but i hope to eventually.. It may sound hard but if no. 12 comes thru this will eventually.)
18) for my wish to come thru..
19) To be happy..
20) Anything u think i will like..

I know some of the wishes are stupid esp no. 12 and 13 or more, but hey a wish is still a wish.. If any nice people out there wanna get things for me but no time.. dun wan.. or shy to meet me.. u can always send it to my office and attention it to Amelyn Tan (CUS). Ooh ya dun bother to send it on 6th July - in case this date does not ring a bell to u, for god's sake it my birthday, as i am on leave. 5th july is fine.. real fine.. haha like real anyone's going to send me anything like tt.. sobx.. Sorry no home address given.. Please dun play a prank on me.. i am already upset enough i do not need tt.. Ooh well i know i should go to work as den i may have something to do instead maybe having to spend it alone.. sighx nm *starts singing Mr lonely.. lonely.. i'm so lonely..*