Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.
What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

haha this quiz is like so true...

Sad mood tonight...

Don't u just hate it when people likes to hurt u..

all the lies and deceits.. so much for honesty..

i always believe tt if i dun like or want others to lie to me, i should not do that too.. tts why i maybe frank at times.. i believe in retribution.. and i know what goes ard comes ard too.. i'll just wait and see how others are going to be slap back by god..

what's worse.. so much for putting so much trust in others when all u get is a slap right back in your face..

running away.. avoiding and all will nv solve anything... you'll just waste ur life away knowing tt u can nv accomplish anything by yourself.. freak..

you just simply get nonsense like other's snapping at ya.. being sacarstic...

but still although it sounds silly, i still wanna be nice or love others.. willing to overlook and accept any crap...

quit it with telling me to this or to that.. save it.. i've heard enough of how others maybe think how silly i am.. but yet no one can know how i feel inside..

anyway i have already book tix to go to HK in sept.. hope i'll still have as much fun..

Pardon me for my language today i guess its been sometime since i actually blogged like this.. and yes i wanna vent my blardy anger here since i do not know who can i tell this to. i din blog for so long.. dunno wat to do dunno what to say..

anyway i've book my hong kong trip already.. 5d4n.. can't wait.. heng got company reimburse me $300 haha so i can spend more on shopping.. will be making a full list of the fun places to go and shop and of coz eat!!

I got to know some people during this period.. good as well as bad.. but most of them disappoint me.. not only as a friend but also as a person on the whole. I don't wanna name names but i guess more or less they will get what they deserve somehow.. What goes ard comes ard.. i just can't contain this shit inside me anymore but just sorta break down and cry.. when u know them initially u thought they look so promising.. happy to know them until u realised they are just another dickhead walking along the streets..

btw i twisted my knee and broke my ligament.. ouch right and yes it fucking hurts.. i'm so upset.. i went blading with my colleagues.. i went down a slope tt's so steep and twisted it took me by surprise and i fell.. i tot i broke my leg coz its real painful and bad.. shirley ride me back to the bicycle stand on her bike coz i can't walk.. i dunno what to do.. kenny is working so i can't possibly call him.. so i called weijing.. all thanks to him.. he rushed down in 10 mins and drive me home.. so touched..

some of my friends does not even bother to find out the seriousness of it loh.. its not funny and yes its not some blardy muscle strain tt i can still go ard jumping and laughing.. i can't walk properly without feeling as if my leg is going to break soon.. Some can tease me... fine i can take it.. Some wanna scare me and fuck u for that! i shall elaborate more on that later..

Today is Zhenhui's bday celebration.. i wanna go.. my bestie bday le.... i haven eaten my dinner yet.. I sms sharon asking her to come over to pick me up.. although its so near but my injury is still fresh and painful.. no one's home to bring me there too.. but she said no one drives there.. asking me take cab.. wah kaox just so near only le.. i told her can just walk over one.. sighx.. all i need is someone to come bring me over.. its just a few blocks away.. but nm coz it hurts its good i stay home too.. just hope zh wun angry with me.. sorry babe will owe u one.. sobx..

Secondly is something i feel really fucked up abt.. after i came back from doc, i was chatting online with a friend.. Initially he send me a funny video clip.. i watched and laugh.. den he send me another one telling me that the video's volume is a little soft and ask me to turn my volume up.. i did as told as i tot why not.. only to realised that its a video tt towards the end a zombie's face pops up and it screams real loud. I was like so shocked and hurt i burst into tears. Damn it i am already in pain i do not need this ok.. I am hurt as i tot as a friend why the fuck he wanna scare me.. For god's sake his already 29 yrs old and he still does tt?? where is his sense of maturity? its fun and funny to scare girls esp when they are not feeling v well huh.. i really got nth to say man..

Some things i really hate.. and i also hate being misunderstood.. i dun wish to elaborate more on that already i'm so damn pissed..

just cry myself to sleep.. i got work to go to also and i can't possibly take mc till i recover.. wonder how to crawl there.. worse.. how to go to school like tt.. i really dunno..

also i got a problem in my family which has to do with my granny.. sighx.. can't say much too..

i think i'm going to fall back into the depression i had 2 yrs ago.. shutting everything out of my life.. take care people

Who wanna bring me go???? :(

Hey people! I'm back with my bday postings! Had so much fun this week lolx..
I wanna thank so many people for doting me and showering me with wonderful presents..
Soooo happyyyy leeeee.....

I shall therefore thank one by one!
Here goes...

1) Kenny
Thanks so much for the guess watch wor... its so lovely and so me!! its pink i love it.. love it love it love it.. i got so much praises that it suits me a lot! muakx!

Here is a pic of it!


Due to having a lousy phone now.. the pic quality sux!


2) Jarrell
Emma Sweetheart! (u know wat i mean) I was ooh so surprised tt u actually got me my fav perfume! I love it!! I have been craving for this for like sometime already! so so sweet of u! ?????? Thanks for being such a sweetie.. thanks for coming tt day too! I had lotsa fun! your sunshine will always be here for ya!


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Using lousy phone take one..


3) Sharon and Zh!
Thanks ladies.. I love the vouchers! hahaha can purchase more of my make up lemmings tt i have! oOh my hand itchy liao lolx.. I really can buy a lot with it! ??????

4) Siti
dearest siti.. u really surprised me with the gift too! wo ai ni!! i know u can't read the chinese words but han yu pin ying should be ok right hahaha I love this ok! can make my eyebrows nicer liao :X




5) Bern
So sweet of u to send me the bouquet of roses.. lolx.. its lovely.. i know u got heart.. altho u in aus but u still wanna get me someting! thanks for that!!

i got no pic for the roses le.. i use my real camera take the pic and i haven wash it out.. i will when i do!! lol

6) Empy
Ur gift most special la ahahaha money also cannot buy de.. ahahaha i know. precious le.. hao kai xin altho u step on my feet with ur boots.. i know accidentally ahahaha but pain!!! *hugx*

7) Winnie (Winni-gu aka pigkey master aka Full of rubbish), Esther(Wong Tai aka Sotong Leader aka full of crap), TanHui(Lawyer Goh aka Van Goh aka Full of nonsense aka doggy), MoMo(Sotong mbr), Sandy(erm.. dun wanna put her OPS nick here lolx), Charlene(koko) and Doris(Sotong Leader initially but taken over by esther aka Miss Blur blur and ooh ya u love frogs)
My dearest colleagues who i miss so much already! They dun call me Amelyn at work.. they call me baby.. yes i am not joking. i am so sad to part with u all as i have a journey that i need to proceed in my life to further my studies.. u guys are the best colleagues in the world where by i know u all will always be by me and care for me.. I really cannot imagine how i can survive in tamp if u guys are not around man.. Sotong vs Anti Sotong clan.. please keep esther away from me hor! lolx and tame her please.. to my doggy and my pigkey master.. i miss u two lots.. sobx.. U all so sweet lo.. and considerate for me.. It really helps a lot le the gift coz i going broke le.. u know with all my make up and stuff.. Love u all always, Baby (Dogtor Tan aka Full of Sort Fonts aka piglet)

8) Meidai
Dear friend.. I will confirm miss u when u go aus lo.. sobx.. but i do love ur gift set ok!!


9) Adeline and Jennifer
U guys are right!! I will love u 2 foreva.. ahaha i think i got telepathy le.. before i open the present i already told jennifer tt i maybe later wanna go eat fondue and they actually did buy me a fondue making set! Wow and guess what!! they brought it back all the way from TAIWAN ok! lolx! aahahhahaa Fondue making sessions at my place soon ok.. think chocolate.. think cheese!



10)my real meimei
Thanks sweety for giving me the voucher! tho i know u maybe broke liao *sayang*

11)Mei Juan
Girl u got me someting really sweet and its something i may not buy everyday but i actually need it a lot.. ahaha i am those tt love to wear dangling earrings but work cannot wear le.. yet the earrings (which are too small to take a pic of to show u guys) are so cute lo.. got diamonds de wor... sparkling.. woo i like.. I can wear this to work le!!

12) Audrey and Abel
Birthday Candies!! wah first time i see before le.. its really something v unique wor.. and u know i got sweet tooth ahaha

13) Luke
hey dude.. altho i barely know u but i am v touched by ur gesture. thanks for the gap wicker basket! its so cute lo.. lolx..




14) Joanna and Celine
One is my laogong and the other is a friend who is always there to listen and also concern abt me.. Thanks for the goodluck charm u guys give me.. will keep it dearly!

15) Eve and June
Thanks eve and june.. who are my 2 v dear supervisors.. they are so sweet lo.. bought me a doggy handphone stand.. when the hp got sms or calls, it will start barking and the tail will light up! so cute!!

16) Not forgetting every one who send me smses, emails, testimonials and msn msges to wish me a happy bday!
Thanks!

Thanks all for making such a wonderful bday for me! I love u all!

ok! latest update!

LAlalala!! I got the guess watch in pink! yay~

I got the GAP bag already!! by who? wait till after bday den say!!

I got the Ralph Lauren perfume already!

and i'm so happy i'm nv gonna forget tonight..

more updates after my bday! lala

My Birthday Wishlist Post!

Hi all, despite feeling all upset and wanna cry now.. please dun ask me why.. i still have to post something as some of my dear friends asked me wat do i want for my bday.. anyway listing it or not does not make a big difference to me anyway.. its just going to be another sad birthday.. everyone's busy with their own things.. its ok i understand.. i do not have someone special for me or mean much to someone.. I really thought i could have a happy birthday celebration this yr.. initially wanted to organise a party but mummy dun wanna help me with it.. ooh well put tt aside as i guess i spoilt everything and have to face reality... i have to walk this journey alone..

lots of things have been happening to me these days which i just keep to myself coz saying it is not going to make a difference anyway.. people tell me saying it will just make me feel better.. trust me.. it wun.. the burden on my shoulders are more den i can take.. and yet these problems can't be solved by saying or other's helping.. people might not understand why do i behave the way i am sometimes but its ok.. i dun expect them to anyway.. they have their own problems too so why would they wanna bother abt mine..

i'm going to part with more friends soon.. my fabulous lunch khakis from work.. Esther, TanHui, Charlene, Momo, Doris and of coz Winnie.. my wonderful "sotong vs. anti sotong" friends.. when i go back to HQ (Robinsons Rd) on 1st July.. i maybe or should be eating lunch alone liao.. I hate to leave u guys but due to school i am left with no choice as travelling from Tampines to SIM is really a torture.. Think abt it.. it is really horrible tt every time i end lesson which is around 10+ and when i reach my bus stop at braddell road tt time it will be ard 11 already, i have to take bus alone and walk tt horrible walkway alone. some of u may think.. why walk right? Coz even if i take bus, i would either need to wait for the bus near the cemetery there or wait in front of the industry buildings there.. both are just as bad.. dun worry.. i am not tt suay for anything to happen *choychoy* i can take care of myself.. if i can't den too bad.. if its meant to be it will be.. I have a few brushes with death before but its nothing to talk abt..

I went to the zoo today.. had a blast seeing things tt amazes me and scares me at the same time and also happy with the company i had.. Thanks for accompanying me the whole day.. i really appreciate it a lot.. Had Ben n Jerry's Icecream.. it rox.. half way on the trip, my heart was suddenly beating v fast.. i dunno why but i was practically panting but i just kept quiet.. dunno why i did tt too.. guess it doesn't matter.. anyway there is a wishing well there too.. i dropped a coin in it and make a wish.. dun ask me what it is as even tho it may not come thru, at least i know i am v sincere.. and i am pantan too ok.. cannot say de!

Nowadays my health is failing me even tho i have been exercising regularly.. Have repeated cases of nose bleeding out of the sudden or experiencing body numbness esp on my hands arms and legs.. I have been taking care of myself and not forgetting to see doctor. Even the doctor dunno wats wrong with me.. but as for the nose bleed he say i got nose infection whereby my left side of the nose inside swell and pressure on my nose will cause it to bleed. dun worry my nose still looks fine.. This sux as i experience many times giddyness and also nearly blackout a few times..

Anyway here is some of the things on my wish list.. not tt i am bhb or anything but i know some of my dear friends out there are cracking their head on wat to get..
1) Ralph Lauren's Ralph perfume (the one is light blue/turquoise bottle)
2) Guess watch in either pink or gold (as seen below)
3) M.A.C eyepaint in Untitled or Bare Canvas.
4) Shu Uemura eye manicure in Honey Glazed
5) Shopping Vouchers from Isetan, Tangs or Robinsons (dun worry i wun think u are bo sim coz i can use this to buy my make up ahahaha)
6) a MMC memory card 256mb for my Nokia 7610 (talk abt it i wanna cry liao)
7) a digicam (been wanting one for a long time but ex le..
8) a palm top tt i can use for organising my schedule as sch is starting soon... second hand i also dun mind..
9) a straw bag tt looks like the wicker basket from GAP.
10) a mini skirt from "Why everyone is beautiful" store at taka or great world which only 2 person in this world knows which one i am refering to.. i already have the white one.. i dun mind having the green one too..
11) a make over package

ok here are some silly things
12) A boyfriend (jk hahahah *starts crying again*
13) An Evo 8 or 9 car. (unless u got a lot of money to spare if not dun bother.. dun give excuses tt i haven gotten a licence yet as i can always get a car first.. or i can give someone tt car.. *u know who u r*
14) to go on holiday with the one i love
15) to die ( haha ok if u kill me i promise tt i wun go and haunt u.. if cannot kill me nm just knock me out so tt i will lose my memory)
16) for Granny to get well and recover so tt she will be stronger and healthier.
17) To get married and have my own family and baby ( I know this is hard.. i nv say i want it now.. but i hope to eventually.. It may sound hard but if no. 12 comes thru this will eventually.)
18) for my wish to come thru..
19) To be happy..
20) Anything u think i will like..

I know some of the wishes are stupid esp no. 12 and 13 or more, but hey a wish is still a wish.. If any nice people out there wanna get things for me but no time.. dun wan.. or shy to meet me.. u can always send it to my office and attention it to Amelyn Tan (CUS). Ooh ya dun bother to send it on 6th July - in case this date does not ring a bell to u, for god's sake it my birthday, as i am on leave. 5th july is fine.. real fine.. haha like real anyone's going to send me anything like tt.. sobx.. Sorry no home address given.. Please dun play a prank on me.. i am already upset enough i do not need tt.. Ooh well i know i should go to work as den i may have something to do instead maybe having to spend it alone.. sighx nm *starts singing Mr lonely.. lonely.. i'm so lonely..*