Yours Truly, Emma.. the unpredictable girl in her unpredictable little world..

today is siti's big day..

i attended her engagement.. first time i been to a malay engagement.. all her family members helping around.. cooking in big pots.. everyone sitting around chatting...

i went into her room. a bed full of pretty stuff from her to her fiance..
i am sure faizal will love what siti prepared for him..

i am so happy for her
she look so beautiful

will post up the pic soon

It's ironic that i am attending a malay engagement. it's like a slap in the face.. i don't mean it a bad way really it just happens due to bad timing..

deep inside i feel so sad.. i wanna cry but i can't show siti... it felt horrible thinking about it... its just like someone close to u died and yet u have to like go to the cemetary for something.. yea like reminding u of something u don't want to..

then again looking back.. this is not the first time i heard abt a guy in tp doing the same thing or i should say not the first time i hear the girls there doing the same thing.. not pointing fingers at anyone just saying it based on past experience... my poly girls, u should know who i am talking abt..

of course i am happy for her but i don't know how to explain this but it hurts real bad..

it's hard to believe people change in such a short time..
its even harder to believe why people choose to be a third party in other people's relationship
i have never try to break anyone up or be involved in someone's relationship intentionally..
i guess whatever i do i believe in retribution and karma but sometimes i guess even if u do things not wanting to hurt others.. u still get hurt eventually..
worse is that they don't even feel guilty.. guess that's what makes them wat i don't want to be..

why must the one u love most hurt u so much
yet they can't see the devil that is leading them blindly.